Okay so I'm out for a walk as I'm writing this and I feel like I have finally given anxiety the "boot” OUT OF MY LIFE. By "boot" I mean, I dug out the largest hardest steel toe cap thing I could find and kicked it so far out of my life that it will never darken my mind again!
If you do not know anxiety let me introduce you to her she is apologies for the language a BITCH! She is your worst feeling of fear multiplied by 100, a demon, a scar, a hurt, an insecurity a passion for being scared that just won't leave it's owner alone.
If you do know anxiety by nature let me tell you how to get rid of her once and for all. I have suffered from it on and off since my brothers passing, around this time a long-term relationship I was in also ended. I'm going to talk about it with the hope that anyone who allows suffers from it will also open up to their friends and family. I have given up caring how I'm perceived or what other opinions of me are and that is what began to truly free me from its clutches. Over the last 24 hours I have had 3 beautiful young people approach me from completely different backgrounds over this same virus and I feel the need to talk about this highly toxic lie. It can be something we believe about ourselves, others, or a situation that we believe to be true and more then likely isn't it is just our perception of it.
Around 350 million people in the world suffer from anxiety so let me first of all say you are normal. To those who think they don't suffer from it. You would be surprized to learn that you might and don't even know you are. If you are sitting in your house now afraid to do anything that would drastically change your life afraid to take a chance, leave the country, be by yourself for more than a day you more than likely are suffering from anxiety. If you constantly try to act loud or can’t enjoy your own company, try to keep busy all the time to distract yourself from thinking etc these may also be signs.
The Oxford dictionary describes it as the following:
A feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome:or
Psychiatry - A nervous disorder marked by excessive uneasiness and apprehension, typically with compulsive behaviour or panic attacks
Sounds horrible right well what would make it even more horrible, would be taking that feeling and wrapping it up so tightly into the back of throat for fear of taking to anyone about it. This can sometimes happen for fear of being classed as crazy or depressed. It could feel like a stone on your head or a constant migraine, the urge to vomit, a funny feeling in your tummy or not bring able to shut your eyes, let alone sleep. Whatever way it decides to manifest in your body illness weight gain/loss are other symptoms it will show up eventually if the cause behind it is not dealt with.
Now let me tell you how I overcome it.
I discovered what the trigger was. What is the trigger for your anxiety? do you know? What situation in your life brings it on? Start to map when you suffer from it what the circumstances you are in at that moment? What is fear? What are you constantly thinking about? If you do this every time you suffer from it, a pattern will emerge and you will at least see what the cause is.
Once you’ve discovered what the cause is you have several options but the one thing you can’t avoid is talking about it either with a close friend, family member, counselor or even a stranger if you can’t face telling anyone you know. The most important thing you can do is talk about it, I'm serious if this seems to hard at first just write it down, write about how the situation makes you feel etc. Eventually if you write about it enough you’ll be able to talk about it. The most important thing to remember if you are suffering from it, is to just keep reminding yourself is what's the worst that can happen from this situation that is making you feel like this. Write it down and then say okay well that's not that bad and try to think of the positives from the outcome ie. I’m still be alive. No matter what it's over it always have the same effect, it will get rid of the overwhelming feeling and get it out of your body.
Ps. remember it's totally normal everyone, 330 million people all over the world suffer from it.
Just say to yourself flip it I'm right, whatever the situation is once you are being true to your heart and soul you do not need to apologise for how you feel.Try be calm just relax and breath and focus on your breath. Tell who ever you believe in whether that is a higher power, God, Jesus, Allah or even your higher self they are all the same, ask with all your heart, for them to wrap there arms around u so tightly u actually feel the love and calm down.
When I suffered from it I felt like my stomach was so sick with anxiety, I felt like I was going to explode or go crazy. Another thing to remember is that we are who we are. More importantly we are exactly who we are meant to be for a reason, we act and feel exactly how we are meant to! Just remind yourself when you feel it coming on say FLIP IT get the hell out of my body and pray so hard for it you can't be ignored. You will literally feel the love and warmth of who I believe is Jesus but whatever you call that something out there that is more than us mere human beings and you will know you are loved like a baby. Then u want or need to crawl into a hole away from everyone. You will have love behind you giving you strength to stand up and make whatever changes you need to make to stop suffering from it. Promise yourself that today you will take action whether that means removing yourself from the situation that is causing it or talking about it until you find the cause and solution to this vile infection.
To sufferers I send my love and the assurance that you can beat this disease. I am and so can you!
To non-suffers maybe this will be insight or a source of help to a friend suffering.
To non-suffers maybe this will be insight or a source of help to a friend suffering.
I hope you feel inspired,
Loves ANNIE XXX
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